>> WELCOME BACK

>> MOVIE NIGHT

I saw the movie Forbidden Kingdom today. The one with Jet Li and Jackie Chan. It was pretty decent; I loved seeing Jet Li take on the more playful, energetic role of the Monkey King rather than his usual gruff, serious characters.

I went with one of my childhood friends, and I guess it was kinda like a date. He paid for my ticket, bought me popcorn and ice cream, and took me home after.

I had fun, but I wonder where this is going to go.

>> SILENCE

They say that when a person has changed, it means they stopped living life your way.

But what if you were happy with the life you had?

I know happiness doesn’t last. It stays for just a while.

I know everything changes. Change is inevitable.

Still, I cannot help but wish, wish with all my heart that some things would just stay the same.

Is a small shred of security so much to ask for?

>> SUNSET

Yet another day has passed, another weekend gone. I feel as if I have wasted it somehow.

Even though I went out with my family and did other things besides watch TV and sleep, it doesn't seem to be enough to lift the sorrow that appears to have settled itself in my heart. Lately, I've been sinking deeper and deeper into dejectedness. And I'm not just saying that for the dramatic emo-effect it has. Lol.

To me, life has dulled. Though I am merely 16, it seems as though I've lived an eternity of repetativeness. Wake up early, go to school, come home, do homework, sleep late. It's an endless cycle.

Added on top of that is the friendship troubles I'm currently having. As it turns out, my best friend (that I've known since elementary) and I are no longer talking to eachother. I guess we just drifted apart.

I think it's kinda funny that when you think you've come to know somebody, you place your complete trust in them. That's what friendship is supposed to be about--trusting the other person with your vulnerability. You never stop to suspect that they might be fooling you.

But I guess I'm the fool now.

>> SMILE

When you love someone--really love someone--would their happiness truly be enough for you to be happy yourself? Many sweet quotes go, "Be happy, because seeing you smiling makes me happy!" or something along those lines.

For myself, I don't know. Personally, I feel that even if my loved one is smiling, if it's not me that's making them smile, I would feel a little down about it. It's not to say that I wouldn't be happy for their good fortune. It's just that unrequited love hurts, y'know?

There's so much to cry about in life, and so very little to be happy over. I try to be positive, but having high hopes usually means they're going to come crashing down later.

I wish that there were some way I could get out of this depressed state I seem to be in. The sad thing is, I remember how happy I used to be in the past, but things are so different now.